Cafe Diaries 06
Helter Skelter
That has been my state of mind these past few days. My mind is neither here nor there. Come to think of it, my mind has been in total disarray since school started. My readings are piling and so are my to-do lists at work. I had more headaches than any average human can have in a lifetime; I’m chomping out advil (read: ed-veal) every four hours. That’s why if you notice I’m taking a lot of breaks from writing my TMA. I guess I’ve never felt more harassed in my life. Time management is just not in my dictionary these days.
But then, I realized that you just can’t do all things at the same time. It’s a reminder to me that as much I’d like to think I’m superwoman, I have no control over certain things. Sometimes, we expect too much from ourselves. We set our boundaries so high, and when we can’t deliver, we beat ourselves to death about being too lax or for not being good enough. And we end up being too stressed and miserable. (like I feel now L). I believe it’s just a matter of accepting that we can only do so much. It’s important that we find our balance; wouldn’t it be wonderful to go down from our own high horse once in a while? That’s why I’m thankful for good friends who know exactly when to give me support or to just let me be whenever I’m in these stressful times.
I’ve learned that in life, it is better to hope than to expect. Hope opens up possibilities, Expectations limits them. Too often, we overlook the simple things. Encouragement. Support. Acceptance. Love. Space to just be. These are the jewels we’ve relegated in the attic in our frenzied attempt to shape our destinies. Wouldn’t it be great if we let each other be? It would be liberating to release our white-knuckled grip on life; to trust enough it its process to let it unfold. It would be absolutely freeing to remember that grace comes from the gentle acceptance of life, simply for the way it is.
